
Dramatic Monologue: On Late Blooming
Chuck Sweetman
It’s a coming into one’s own, isn’t it? Blooming. . .
You hear it said casually: when it came to math—
bless his heart—he was a real late bloomer.
We’ll all get there, later if not sooner. But there’s
another, more storied kind of late blooming:
a gradually-sudden metamorphosis! An elegant
solution to the long-worked problem of how to be
uniquely someone. This version’s not inevitable.
It’s not about short cuts or rookie-of-the-year
awards either. I love how morning rituals and acts
of devotion give shape to a passionate person.
The vestments! The talismans! The quiet pageantry
of sustaining a commitment in postmodern times.
And look, I’m not the first to honor that spirit
by reaching to myth, but who are late bloomers
if not questers? Embracers of great tasks, riders
of storms, improvisors with misfortune. Believers
(at least suspenders of disbelief) in the spoils
of victory, granted by a mostly-ordered cosmos
in its own good time. . . In its own good time.
But what can you say? It doesn’t always work out.
“Death by balloons.” That’s how one of my subjects
described her nervous breakdown. After years
busking in Boulder, Colorado, blowing balloons,
twisting entire packs of red dogs and green dragons
while scrapping to get by. “It felt like suffocating,”
she said. “It was death by balloons.” Dream’s end.
Curse the gods—if only the household icons
of priority and necessity. Spite the begrudging gods
altogether, rejecting the games they command
for their own pleasure. Call out bias against people
not created in their image. The disillusioned
have many honest, even righteous, reasons to refuse.
But! But for the undaunted, obsessed, misguided, mule-
headed, misunderstood, masochistic, romantic few—
what call to action remains possible on the day
when the sun will shine down. And there you are,
mid-quester stance in a courage-thirsty arena.
Sounds a lot like the famed American success story,
doesn’t it? Albeit on acid or something. Trippier,
in every sense. Late bloomers have journeyed.
Spent time on remote islands. Finding love, building
ships, eating lotus, seeing visions . . . visions of life
and death. They’ve listened (particularly Americans
have listened) to the language of fulfillment, beheld
its codewords as sparks flaring up from stoked
campfires, flashing across polished helmet
and sharpened sword, dazzling out into the night sky.